And as you may have noticed....

...I am back blogging. Its been 2 years and those years wont go into the big book as good years. 

Surrounded by darkness,
friends in need,
poor souls, tortured with no way out or too shaken to stand still. 
and then some

who just left. 
in anger.
but mostly too early.
they didnt ask or say anything. 
Just left. Us. Me.
In tormoil. 
Too many questions unanswered. 


Want answers? 
You wont get them. 
not now, not ever. 
Forget it
and fuck off.

Scars, new ones beside the old ones. on top. beneath. like spaghetti. or Mikado.

And all you need, sometimes, is just a hug. A real one. 
Like a moment. A real moment. 

and then we start running again... everything just not to stand still.

(Elbow covering U2 - Running to stand still)

One day it will be over. For you, yes YOU, and me, ME. But as Robert keeps saying: DONT FEED THE MONSTERS. They are all small in the beginning before they grow and grow and grow.


Enough time wasted. Lets get to it. I wont wait for you, no more and never again. Life is on my back, gotta go. Made a plan and worked out so far. Impressed myself today, keep at it. Nobody else to (impress).

So here we go.

 Alabama Shakes - Always Alright

And one for the road (a bit cheesy, but hey, F... it)

 Anna Kendrick - Cups (Pitch Perfect's "When I'm Gone")