February 2011

was a lifetime ago....

The events in my personal life of the last months of 2010 and beginning of 2011 until now do require some musictherapy, so here it goes:

Goo Goo Dolls: Iris

and break it did.... And it was foolish of me to think, that it ever could have gone somewhere. But I dont regret any of it.


She says: Destiny is not a matter of chance; it is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for; it is a thing to be achieved.

Seriously, Natalie, I wish you get it, with happiness and all. And even though it still hurts but may you get there.

Personally I am not sure and still thinking about it. Actually there is very little right now I am really sure about, but I guess that is one of the inevitable parts of the journey, the bit they call picking up the pieces after falling apart and before getting up again. I am slower than others and I hang on longer than others, but that is me. What is on the cards next though? For the first time in my life I am thinking about getting a house. A small house, like a cottage or so. Here in Ireland. But it would be my house.... well, that would be an interesting one, have not done something that big before. Because its a big one, like real big. I am not there yet, but we ll see.

Coldplay - Fix you

Rascal Flatts - Broken Road

Taj Mahal - Take a Giant Step

Katy Perry - Not like the movies

Philip Poisel - Halt mich

Hope...

Neill Young  - Soundtrack Deadman

The New Radicals - Someday we'll know

  

Even though it was never meant to be, i like to think, that this would have been possible. In the best of all possible worlds, that is...

Thought of You - by Ryan Woodward 

 

The Truth and nothing but the truth in one sentence...

 

Trading Yesterday - Shattered (MTT Version)

And Ive lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken

I carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
                                    i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)



by Edward Estlin cummings (1894-1962)

And I will not stop doing so....

About a year or so ago...

... there was a moment of true love. Just a moment, but one true moment. And may I never forget, that one moment is just one moment....

Once we were on the same side

The new Coldplay record is out and so is the vote on how well/bad they did. Personally, so far, I d say: a bit of a mixed bag. Some stuff is playing it safe - the Coldplay sound. Has to earn the production costs, right. Some stuff is a bit too wanting or trying it too hard. And some stuff is just simply brilliant, fantastic...

E.g. this song features Rihanna. Until now she didnt really register with me, after listening to this song I need to know about her. OK, the lyrics are a bit cheesy, but I like it.

P.S.: Chris Martin is still annoying, but isnt often the case, that great musicians/artists/actors etc. are not necessarily the people you want have as friends....

Coldplay feat. Rihanna - Princess of China 

Ohhhhh....

[Chris Martin]
Once upon a time somebody ran
Somebody ran away saying fast as I can
I've got to go...got to go

Once upon a time we fell apart
You're holding in your hands the two Halves of my heart
Ohhhhh, ohhhhh!

Ohhhhh....

[Rihanna]
Once upon a time, we burn bright
That all we ever seem to do is fight
On and on...
And on and on and on...

Once upon a time on the same side.
Once upon a time on the same side, at the same Day
And why'd you have to go have to go and throw it all on my fame

[Chorus]
I could've been a Princess, You'd be a King

Could've had a castle, and wore a ring
But noooooo, you let me gooooooo!

I could've been a Princess, You'd be a king
Could've had a castle, and wore a ring
But noooooo, you let me gooooooo!

And stole my star

[Beat Break]

La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
You stole my star la, la la la la laaaaaa

Oooooooh-oh oh oooooooh oh oh oh ohhhhhhhhh
Oooooooh-oh oh oooooooh oh oh oh ohhhhhhhhh

[Outro]
Cause you really hurt me
No you really hurt me
Cause you really hurt me
No you really hurt me
Cause you really hurt me
Ooooooooh no you really hurt me
Cause you really hurt me
Ooooooooh no you really hurt me....

Courage my heart

I prefer the german version, it just flows nicer, still - the english version carries the message....

 

Steps


As every blossom fades
and all youth sinks into old age,
so every life’s design, each flower of wisdom,
attains its prime and cannot last forever.
The heart must submit itself courageously
to life’s call without a hint of grief,
A magic dwells in each beginning,
protecting us, telling us how to live.


High purposed we shall traverse realm on realm,
cleaving to none as to a home,
the world of spirit wishes not to fetter us
but raise us higher, step by step.
Scarce in some safe accustomed sphere of life
have we establish a house, then we grow lax;
only he who is ready to journey forth
can throw old habits off.


Maybe death’s hour too will send us out new-born
towards undreamed-lands,
maybe life’s call to us will never find an end
Courage my heart, take leave and fare thee well.

STUFEN
 
Wie jede Blüte welkt
und jede Jugend dem Alter weicht,
blüht jede Lebensstufe,
blüht jede Weisheit auch und jede Tugend
zu ihrer Zeit und darf nicht ewig dauern.
Es muss das Herz bei jedem Lebensrufe
bereit zum Abschied sein und Neubeginne,
um sich in Tapferkeit und ohne Trauern
in and're, neue Bindungen zu geben.
Und jedem Anfang wohnt ein Zauber inne,
der uns beschützt und der uns hilft zu leben.
Wir sollen heiter Raum um Raum durchschreiten,
an keinem wie an einer Heimat hängen,
der Weltgeist will nicht fesseln uns und engen,
er will uns Stuf' um Stufe heben, weiten!
Kaum sind wir heimisch einem Lebenskreise
und traulich eingewohnt,
so droht Erschlaffen!
Nur wer bereit zu Aufbruch ist und Reise,
mag lähmender Gewohnheit sich entraffen.
Es wird vielleicht auch noch die Todesstunde
uns neuen Räumen jung entgegen senden:
des Lebens Ruf an uns wird niemals enden.
Wohlan denn, Herz, nimm Abschied und gesunde!